Clarifying my super-quitter attitude

Anonymous Friend defended and clarified her comment after I published my recent post called, "Having a choice won't muffle my voice." She wrote:

I've followed your blog for a while now, and I've seen you descend from the high you reached in April and May, after your first freelance publication, to today's "Money Losing Venture", "Bliss to Piss", "Disillusioned, discouraged, discontinued", and "Uber Quitter".

So, when I saw "We Are Underemployed", which was in fact an edited version of something you wrote back in January, the symbolism was just too strong to ignore. It seemed as if you felt you were back at square one: searching for options that don't exist, as if your successes of the past 6 months were non-existent.

I appreciate all the support to continue down the freelancing road. I fully intent to keep writing--whether it's for freelance magazines, working on my novel, or just here, I haven't totally decided.

One thing I know for sure, and that is I won't be writing for that particular regional magazine again. I fully intend to sell my piece to an alternate publication. I don't know where that will be, but I'm going to sell that piece if it's the last freelance thing I do. I'm very determined to do that. Maybe I want to publish it out of spite. And then perhaps if I find a nice home for it, I'll feel encouraged to start on that process again.

Yes, I know I sounded harsh to just quit everything. But hey, some days are like that and I'm not apologizing for having some downer days. I think that is part of the normal (at least for me) cycle of life. I still have lots (and lots) to say and do in this life and I'm not going to give up.

I just haven't found my stride yet.